Am I ready?

I ask myself everyday: "Am I ready to move?" "Am I ready to love again?" "Am I ready to do this and get that done?"...
Day by day, everything comes and goes so quickly, even HIM.
I wish I could say I'm ready for all of those things, Like the way I was 2 years ago. I put myself on the move again to a new country, I'm ready, totally ready for that. But somehow, I'm not ready to love and be loved again.
I don't want to hurt anyone, and I don't want to be serious in any kind of relationship this time. Because I'm afraid to be hurt. I just want to take it easy.
I'm that kind of girl who loves by all her heart, and if she loves someone, she's gonna do everything for him to keep him with her. But she can never believe in love. She's scared of doing it... Poor girl.
I wishes somebody would make me believe in love. I need it. I need to learn how to trust the others... I really need it...
Somehow, seeing my sister falling apart everyday hurts me so badly that I close my heart little by little. Please, if you are supposed to be mine at least once in this life, come and open it. I'm tired of living this way: No trust, no love, full of strangers.