Sleepless...

These days, I often stay up until 3am for no reason.

Sometime, I feel so disappointed because of myself and other people who I deeply love.

They are the ones I truly believe and always want to share my everything, but how many of them really think of me as a true friend? I know some of them are famous, some of them are too busy, some of them have so many friends. When they don't need me, they never have time to listen to me. Sometime in their eyes, I look like a lazy, jobless, useless and always-be-free girl.

They never know how the feeling of being despised is because it seems they never think of me as their friends like the way I think of them.

Life is not as we know it. Life is full of ups and downs, uncertainties and risks, disappointment and tiredness... There is an "IF" in "LIFE", a "LIE" in "BELIEVE".

I feel like my belief has been eliminated little by little.

Please don't take my belief away, please!

How I will be if tomorrow when I wake up, I wouldn't trust anything and anyone.

P/S: Chickie is coming home. That would be the only happiness of this week.